BUENO POWER VLOG #51 - SPRING IS HERE... SORT OF...

Apologies for not posting this on Monday. Having no internet at home is def weird, but whatever. Enjoy the Vlog!

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LEFT IN THE DARK #13 - COLD HANDS

Yesterday I was able to photograph a little bit of the city. It was fucking cold man, but it was something I had to deal with. Jen and I went to New York with my roommates and their friends to eat at two festivals. It was pretty cool and it broke the same routine that I'd usually would have with Jen in the weekends. Overall I'd like to go back and do some more shooting. For now.. enjoy the image.

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BUENO POWER VLOG #50 - ...AND WE'RE STILL HERE

The 50th episode and I did a couple of things different here to sort of spruce up the Vlog. I'm still trying to figure out what else I could do to enhance it, but at this time I'm going to just let it grow in my mind as more Vlogs get produced

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LEFT IN THE DARK #12 - HOWEVER YOU DRINK IT THE TASTE IS THE SAME

Again, it seems like more of my images are geared toward the still life style, but I think I'm okay with it. I'll hopefully do more portraits in the weeks to come, but we'll see about that I guess.

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SOMTHING TO THINK ABOUT AND THE PROGRESS OF IT

This morning sort of got me thinking about a lot of things when I had a conversation with my girlfriend about paying her respects to a family friend that recently passed away. It's a somber thing to think about, but when it's something that you can't control it could shake you up a bit. We joke about how our heritage, in some ways, being stubborn to go to the doctor, but we know that healthiness is something we try to take seriously. Of course living a little does come and risking something does change things a bit, but is it worth it at the expense of your health? I honestly don't think so.

During and after my divorce I saw that my mental and physical health was improving. For seven years I dealt with numerous amounts of stress financially and emotionally. I've recently gotten better dealing with it, but there are times I'm privately spaced out about past experiences and almost feeling sorry for myself I had put myself through those things. Some of that hurt still follows me, but I try my best to not let it get to my head. As my mental and physical health improves my ability to create improves as well and maybe that's why I'm writing all this.

I think it's important to surround yourself with positive energy even when you live in an environment that's negative. It's also important to be aware of your health and how you live day by day. Some of those poor choices could catch up to you and really damage your future self. I'm not saying that living a little will be a complete consequence, but being careful of things you do is much better than being careless. That's probably why I'm at the state I'm in today.

My truck is on the fritz again, I've slightly returned on crap diet, I haven't been going to the gym because of said truck and shitty weather conditions, and my anxiety is trying to have a fight with me. I mean with all that how the fuck do you deal?

Well..

1. I should've maintained my truck all this time (and I'm so glad that I've been saving money just in case.)

2. I should've grocery shopped properly (eating vegan burgers for a few days isn't healthy)

3. I shouldn't have drank that coffee on Wednesday morning when I got all stressed out.

4. I need to think before I start assuming shit.


I really don't know where I was getting at with all this, but I just want to say this.... I'm trying to make better choices and I'm trying my best to be healthier. I'm still considering getting a therapist for a few sessions, but overall I'm doing what I can. I guess that's all I wanted to say... This blog might've been very useless to write and read, but it certainly felt better for me.

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BUENO POWER VLOG #49 TEMPORARY SNOWSTORMS

The next Vlog should be a little special since it's the 50th episode. Hopefully by getting the production done this week I should have it ready. Enjoy the vid!

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LEFT IN THE DARK #11 - IS IT EVER GONNA END?

Since were are in a pretty weird period of weather here in Connecticut I'm trying my best to not go insane. There are days where the sun decides to stay awake and other days it just hides behind clouds and stays there for awhile. To be fair the 4 seasons is something to experience regardless if you hate it or not. To be honest it's helped strengthen my tolerance for cold weather. Whatever though. I'm still done with it.

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BUENO POWER VLOG #48 - SMALL DEDICATIONS

Another small Vlog today. Most likely the next vlog is going to be the same, but lots of things are happening in the next few weeks. I'll be going hard on it this month for sure.

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LEFT IN THE DARK #10 - DRINKS

I get the feeling that most of these images are going to be of still life's, landscapes & portraits. I'm not really complaining, but I think I need to bump it up a notch with the images. I'll try to figure something out in the weeks to come

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QUIET DREAMS - FEBRUARY

Dear February,

Cold and sleepy. Warm and wet. Rough and smooth. These opposites were canon to a mood you created. Days I was tired... Nights I was awake.... I'm drained by your bipolar actions. I'm affected physically and mentally. I can barely wake up at 4:55 am to get ready for work. I do my best to keep healthy while my lover and loved ones stay sick. These clothes are too thin to bundle up. This skin is too dry to moisturize. Still, I manage to get at least six hours of sleep and keep the radiator on.

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