A Fresno Punk Shares a Story About How Money Almost Ruined Her Life

Monday, July 22, 2024




I got a chance to read the autobiography of Madeline Pendleton's book "I Survived Capitalism and All I got was this Lousy T-Shirt". Humorous in many moments the book outlines parts of this woman's life that were both anxiety inducing and unapoligetically relatable. Money certainly sucks, but you can make it un-suck if you make good choices with it. And making good choices with money is not easy.

Though that Madeline gives you advice on how to budget, buy a house and/or manage a company humnanely I was more interested about the stories of her upbringing in Fresno, CA. I'm not much of a native in Fresno, but have lived there and associated with the city for a number of years that helped identify a part of who I am. And reading some of the statistics, the culture that she was involved in and the hustle she endured I can almost feel it overlaying some of the experiences I had living there in my adolescence. The theme of being "a fighter" throughout the whole book, I feel, does a bit of deservice. I read the book thinking "this dude went to 5 different wars".

There was a time in my life where I met Madeline. If I could recall I felt a bit intimidated being around her because her aura was beaming bright from such a short person lol. I've acquainted with her in some periods, but never kept in contact with her at all. However, looking back meeting her I remembered her being pretty damn cool and just down to earth. In a point where I was finding myself in the scene trying to affiliate with people I could hang and make music with her approach with me was calm and collected. Being Filipino around a white dominated space at the time had its anxieties and I couldn't necessarily relate to some of the things they were dealing with. But if I remember she never really made me feel anxious other than the fact that she just seemed intimidatingly awesome lol.

For awhile her book has been floating around my social media circles and I ended up buying the book when I was in New York for a friends bday party. Apparently the copy I purchased is a signed copy. Hey why not? Bought the copy and I dove in.

Instantly you are sucked in on a specific scenario that would become the mood direction of the whole book. Humorous as I had mentioned earlier Madeline shares real experiences while attaching data that could be a reason of her shortcomings as an adolescent to grown adult. Loss after loss her will to fight kept her hopeful even at times of huge lows that she'd endure. In the end she was able to conquer all the troublings of money and continues to help her loved ones with it to this day. To be honest it wasn't an easy book to swallow considering the realities she shares. Considering some of the experiences I had with certain relationships and money I'm at a point in my life I'm able to live comfortably and handle debt with ease. I'm a full timer that goes in and collects a paycheck.

To Madeline,
This book was good. Your writing style is awesome and paints many pictures when sharing stories about your past life. I can hear it and see it in my mind and when a book does this to me I'm excited and sad to finish the book. This was a great read and I'm glad someone who I briefly knew from a city that helped me become who I am today had found great success in what they love. Not to mention helping the ones around you that need it.

sincerely,
Arthur

P.S.
How do I work for you lol

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Update: What's Up?

Sunday, July 14, 2024

So far the Summer has been pretty damn good. The heat has been a bit taxing as of late, but nothing to the point where it's getting me to hate the outside. I'm happy. I'm smiling a lot. I'm eating good food. I have a lot of things going on. I'm busy. Everything is fine you know?

I sometimes feel bad that I don't write a lot considering how life has been treating me. Most of the time writing was an outlet to talk about how low I felt, but now things have been just good. Good because I make the best of the good. Good because I'm not struggling like I was years ago.

One of things I've been trying to do is be a bit more social. I know, I'm kinda like that already, but there's been a bit of resistence in the past few years considering how much of an emotional wreck I was. Since I started my new job things have been just moving so fast for me and making new friends have been kinda in the back burner. My supervisor Mike has been helping me casually meet new people along with other outlets like Discord and Instagram freeing me up a bit more. I've also been shooting here and there for things that I'm more interested in rather than be stuck on doing these parties I've been doing for a good minute.

Music has been a bit of a challenge lately, but I think I've been going a little too hard on it for a good amount of months and I suddenly burned out earlier this year. As of late I've been picking it back up to just see what other additions or subractions I can make. I'm kinda back in the saddle, but I think I need to be a bit more laxxed rather stress on having to make work complete immedidately.

I'm good here guys. I think I'm going to keep it here for now.


- Arthur

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